Oh, 2017 you’ve been quite the year. I’ve never been more happy to see a year go. Don’t let the door hit you on the way out!
I had a long blog typed, but lost it all when my cat walked across the keys. LOL. It was too personal and private anyway, so it’s probably a good thing it got erased. If anything, 2017 has taught me to become more private and protective about who I let inside my little world- not everyone deserves that right.
Here’s a few things 2017 has taught me…
People treat you how you show or tell them to treat you. A co-worker tells me this nearly everyday. If you let them walk all over you, you’ll be the doormat they wipe their feet on. If you let them too close, they’ll likely ruin the trust you thought you shared. If you let them belittle or discourage you, you’ll allow yourself to become what they say you are. Through the heartache I’ve experienced this year, I’ve built walls around my heart.
I am good enough. I am pretty enough. I am worth it. I deserve whatever my heart desires.
Put yourself first. Set your own terms. Walk to your own beat. Be you. Do you.
Let. Them. Go.
When I meet someone that I have common likes with, I hang on tight. You can never have too many friends, right? Wrong. Some friends aren’t worth having. They bring you down, try to control you, only care about themselves, and are just bad influences. This year, I’ve had to let some go and distance myself from others. In return, I’ve gained some true flowers that are blooming alongside of me. Those are the keepers.
Guys are jerks. Guys are pigs. Guys think with one body part. Of course, not all guys are like this (I hope), but the ones I’ve encountered this year fit this description perfectly. I’ve learned to say “your loss” and move on.
I’m a news junkie- always have been. I love my CNN. It was literally on in my house 24/7. I was so updated on everything. However, last year’s election just put a sour taste in my mouth. I was disappointed in my network and favorite anchors, not because I’m a Trump fan or because FOX was always right (because they’re not), but because of the constant arguing- on all networks. It made people vicious, brought out the worst in a man’s character. It was ugly. It made me feel ugly and dirty and mean. I couldn’t stand it. So, I stopped watching- cold turkey. I removed a lot of sites from my social media too. It took a while, but I’ve never felt more peace. I love news, but it should never bring out the worst in us. The world needs less negative and more positive. The world needs less insults and accusations and kinder words. The world needs less Trump and more Jesus. Okay, enough about that. Long story short, I had less headaches in 2017 without news.
Side note: I had no idea Hurricane Harvey hit until a co-worker showed me pictures. Told ya, cold turkey.
Family is what’s most important. It’s also what gets under your skin the most. Family can be the most judgemental, unappreciative, negative in your life while also being the first you run to in times of need. This year has been rough on my family. We’ve argued. We’ve held grudges. We’ve gone weeks without talking. We’ve confided in one about another. We’ve hurt each other. But we’ve also been the shoulder to cry on. We’ve held each other during horrific news. We’ve apologized. We’ve forgiven. We’ve prayed. We’ve laughed. We’ve loved. This year has made me realize how quickly family can be gone, how swiftly life can change, and how none of us are promised tomorrow. So, love. Love hard.
Such a touchy subject for me this year. Mine has wavered, fallen short, and at times, disappeared. I’ve questioned my purpose and if God cares. I’ve doubted if He’s real and if it’s all even worth it. I’m human- not perfect. I was recently reminded that it takes just one small ounce of faith. I’ve mustered up one small ounce, so for now, I’ll hold to that.
Well, 2017, I have seven more hours of you, then I’ll gladly wave adios. You’re definitely one I want to forget, but I’ll always remember. To 2018, I pray you’re softer, kinder, easier and full of adventure and good things. May we love harder, speak life, smile brighter, encourage often, anger less, forgive more, and make it well with our soul. May I take all I’ve learned from 2017 to make 2018 my best year yet!
Cheers to 2018!!!